I Went To The E.R.

Ok. So in my last entry I wrote about having some heart palpitations. . . they were accompanied by chest pains and some shortness of breath. I called nurse conection and told them about what was going on. They advised me to go to the E.R. (I forgot to mention my grandmother had to have open heart surgery, a quadrupal bypass, she died while in surgery more than 10 years ago but I don't want to get into that.) I will give the doctor some credit. They ran a few tests. BUT when all came back normal, he wrote it all off. He said I had a panic attack. I had panic attacks when I was younger, I know what happens to me AND what it feels like. Plus I havent been depressed or anything. I was laying on the couch watching the super bowl. He also did a blood pregnancy test. It was negative. However, it could be to soon. I shall wait 2ish weeks perhaps a little more. I will be patient. It will happen when it is meant to. Good night, I'm off to read some blogs then to bed.

I wonder if anyone else had heart palpations during pregnancy. I did with Serenity and I have had 3 this week. One just a minute ago. Hmm. I consulted babycenter.com (love it) and if my cycle was supposed to be 28 days (assuming that I am pregnant), then I could take a test today and it MIGHT come back positive. (~* stares at the pink box resting on the dresser. . .*~). Hmm. But it also said, "if its negative, wait a few days and test again. . ." If it would have been 32 days (tomorrow is CD 32) then its still too soon to test. Hmm. How long should I wait. I don't to waiste a test or two but I dont want to wait too long either. . . ~*Digs rut and crawls in it!*~ Knowing my streak for today there will be more posts to come before the night is gone. . .

Pregnancy On The Brain

2nd post for today. I had to write this dawn. I'm outside writing this from my cell phone. I looked up at the clouds a minute ago and I swear I must have pregnancy on the brain. I saw a baby in utero complete with umbilical cord and placenta. I told you I was going crazy. Ugh.

Is It Ok To Go Crazy?

The wind is so cold. Winter has been weird. It wasnt even this cold in December. It snowed the other day. Not much though. It was rain sleet and snow together. Schools were out the day before and nothing happened. :-0 I think I'm on CD (cycle day) 31. Not to sure. I have to check my calender. Im resisting a really strong urge to take another test. I think af is around the corner. Either that or Im pregnant and its too early to test. Im going crazy. To test or not to test. Now that is the question. Ugh. And to make matters worse, I have no clue when to expect af because this is my 1st pp af. Any thoughts?

1st Post

My name is Sierra. Im am the mother of a beautiful baby girl named Serenity born March 23, 2006 at 11:37 AM. She weighed 7 pounds 5.5 ounces and was 18 1/2 inches long. I got married to my long time boyfriend and Serenity's father on 7/7/06. We have been trying to conceive baby number 2 since November 8th, 2006. I breastfeed Serenity and just recently got my first post partum menstrual cycle on 1/5/07. I chart temps and cervical position and mucous on fertilityfriend.com. My cervix is currently high, hard and almost completely closed. I have no clue where that puts me. Non-fertile cp is low, hard, and closed. Fertile is high, soft, and open. Where does that put me? Oh, I know where. Very confused. Im on cycle day 30. My prepregnancy cycles were 32 days. I have no clue if it will go back to normal immediately, when Im considered late or when I can take an hpt without getting a negative, or even if this is my ~*lucky*~ cycle. All the negatives are wearing me thin. I suppose one could place me in the TWW. :-(